|Bootcampers Storm the Hill.|
|Deanna and me|
After jumping up 20 minutes late and rushing around like a mad woman I got to the meeting spot on time and sent Deanna off in search of the Middle School, imagine my horror as I watched her pull out of the parking lot going the wrong way! Apparently she figured it out because she was at graduation.
We stretched a bit as a team and took off on our run to Holy Hill. I started out close to the front and stayed there for a bit, it wasn't long before Adam told me to take the flag. I remember toting that flag the first time and the second time and really really struggling trying to run and hold that and you know breathe, this time it wasn't so bad and he actually ended up telling me to slow down. (that has NEVER happened before). When I handed over the flag to... ummm I really don't remember who... I said ok I am going to hold my position and only fall back when the new person comes to get the flag. I did that for quite a ways, then all of a sudden I was four foot behind the person in front of me.. then five.. then one person passed me, then two.. I remember exactly how it felt. It felt like defeat! Sure enough I started falling back and the next thing I knew I was running along and just annoyed as hell. I TRIED to pick it up the tiny little bit I needed but for some reason it just wasn't there. Thank heavens for Amanda (yes once again she saved me) she ran along with me, encouraging me every time I said something grumpy like.. I can't believe I am behind!
At some point I did say out loud "my ONLY GOAL of today was to stay with the group to NOT fall behind." apparently I wasn't as far behind as I thought because without missing a beat the guy in front of me (I hate I don't know everyone on my teams names.. we need name exercises to play) turns around and says "umm hello, you are still WITH the group" and he was right I wasn't really behind I was just in the back of the pack. So goal accomplished I did run it faster that any other time because the last two times I did that I was WAYYYYYY behind.
|Sea of Red|
|Up the Hill!|
Time to head up the hill! Once we were up there and properly seated on the steps (it takes awhile when you have 130 plus people to get properly seated) the General Matt Costa gave us all a good talking to, about where we were, how we got there, and what we needed to do to change it. Again I heard the words "You know what that one thing is that you need to give up, that you just need to let go.." I received a message later in the day, after announcing what it was that I was giving up, that they saw it in me as soon as it was mentioned and they knew what I was giving up. That message came from one of my biggest sources of inspiration and faith that I can still do this, Doug Meekins. I adore this man and his daughters. Thank you Doug, Lindsey and Erin for being such great team mates! Love you all.
|I love this guy!!!|
|My girl, Ilona|
With graduation over it was time to say goodbye to the Clownfish and head on to the next team, the next commitment, and the next leg of this journey. Yesterday we started our third and final summer camp, at the end of the day we found out we were now Mahi. The meaning in Hawaiian is "very strong" which is exactly what I am going to have to be to make it through 7 weeks with out a drop of alcohol!
|Deanna happy as can be...|
Yup that was my give, all drinking. While I don't necessarily have what I would call a problem, it is summer and I was having a little bit too much fun, so I knew that needed to be what I gave up. Its all good though, I can do anything for 7 weeks. And I can't wait to compare this picture to the one at the end of the next 7 weeks!!!
|Christine and me.. she is so beautiful.|
There are many changes going on in my life right now, physically, emotionally, relationships, mentally.. things seem to be constantly morphing into new things, so I have to say thank you for all of you that have supported me, are supporting me, and have stood your ground with me even when I am a complete hot southern mess!
Much love to you all.
*All Photos by Courtney Hathaway